7/4: Epiphany

This morning when I woke up I knew. I just knew my fate. I knew that I've rediscovered myself, I know it'd never be the same. 
the six year long suffering was about to end. The walls of anxiety, worrying, hatred, despair, pressure, disappointment have fallen down and I now am living as myself fully. I knew this moment. 

I know my fate lies in abroad; and I will forever be living as an artistic, spiritual person who craves the divine and supernatural and being special. 

and it's probably because I've come to terms with the one thing that'd been bothering me. 
j am so susceptible to stress, and if shows on my skin, and when it does I lose all will to do anything. I become self loathing and start comparing myself to all the other beautiful women I will never ever become. 

now I know. I know I'll be beautiful again. 

🧚🏼‍♀️Your confidence stems from the fact that you're loved by your boyfriend 

🧚🏼‍♀️Pain turns into glamor. The jealousy, the physical pain, the disappointment-- it fuels me.