7/3: Realizing

肌荒れて疲れてると、家事などやる気が出ず、朝もスッキリ起きれない。

I am not confident enough to do even the simplest tasks - god forbid my insecurity - but I have found that no matter how disfigured I am, knowing that my boyfriend loves me gives me the base confident I never had. This has enabled me to do my job despite the lack of confidence and ardor. 

The past month has deprived me of any art or anything worth living for and I was in agony. The excruciating pain of mundane everyday life has waned me down. 

but now I am hopeful. My worry is gone because I now have ample confidence given to me by my boyfriend - I can affirm myself even though I am disfigured, I have good friends in and outside of work (Sayüri, Sayaka, Abechi, Shun, Taro), and my work is not something that a newbie can be involved in. I am satisfied. I believe I am good at writing and casually talking to people. 

🧚🏼‍♀️Do the chores and live because your boyfriend loves you. 

❣️Met Shuhan Rian Joanne despite having bad skin

❣️set the water server 

❣️did all the chores 

❣️ate a lot