7/11: Feeling Miserable

I woke up in the middle of the night 

looking through peoples Instagram stories, and thinking how ugly and miserable j am. 
Im trying my best but the low self esteem and negative thinking get the best of me and my skin gets fucked. I'm doing my best drinking water, not feeling stressed and relaxing by taking a bath but it doesn't seem to be working at all. And I'm pushing people away cuz I feel like I'm not worth Being loved and cared about. 
Wht do I do bout this loneliness and anxiety and self hatred. 

but on a more positive note I feel better than I did before. I feel like I belong